God is not a man

If God is this all-knowing being, I feel for him. You always appreciate things most when you have a change in attitude. If you always knew what it felt like to be right, I don’t think everyday wouldn’t be as much fun.

I feel for him. Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes you hate everything. He doesn’t know what it feels like to care about things that don’t work out or to be depressed or have his feelings hurt by other people. So when I pray, does he really understand me? Naw, he’s not a person, he’s not fighting like the rest of us are, everyday, trying to find our peace in a world where we have to fight everyone else trying to find their peace at the same time. Unless this is the reason he created the devil… ahh, the guy who represents everything that is false. Yeah, we need that guy.

The world isn’t big enough for all of us - that’s the problem. That’s also the beauty of it. That’s the growth, that’s what forces us to learn and never stop learning. The more we learn about this world and the more crap we go through, the more God laughs at us because maybe what he knows is that the hurdles won’t ever stop.

If it gives people some solace to think that there’s this being outside our physical realm that understands our pain, go ahead. I can’t justify that though. When I get stressed, I tell myself to just chill out, to not take things so seriously, to separate myself from what I’m working on, not to let my ego get in the way of advancing what I’m trying to do. I try to stay focused on the ultimate goal, and if doing my best isn’t good enough, I laugh. That’s when I laugh with God.

If God was a man, he would realize how tough life is for everyone and tell us he’s sorry, he can’t imagine what it is we’re going through. But since he’s some kind of all-knowing being, the only thing he’s sorry for is that some people never figure out he’s laughing with us, not at us.

If God was a man, he would probably try and convince us that it all has something to do with trying hard but not investing yourself in the outcome. If you don’t try hard, you really have nothing to bitch about. And if you invest yourself in the outcome, you’re only setting yourself up for failure. And failure is never fun.